67th bloooog if i'm not wrong -.-.....
Let's see....mom's feeling better after discharging from hospital, she can even cook now, missed her cooking.
Went out with Zhenzhen yesterday, what the fuck...she got to IMM earlier 'cuz she took cab, when she's there, she call and tell me to rush there. -.- I walk from JE interchange to IMM instead of taking shuttle bus. Who the fuck knows there's construction going on in the middle of the way, I have to walk back ONE BIG ROUND to reach IMM, when I reach there she tells me she's going to meet her boyfriend soon, so after buying our stuffs she leave. SO! wtf? I rushed there, strained my ankle, getting all dressed up and end up sweaty. JUST TO GO THERE AND MEET HER, THEN SHE TELLS ME SHE'S MEETING HER BOYFRIEND -.-....and, duh, I shopped alone....pathetic me.
Today, he's back from vacation. Missed him loool, everytime when something happens I just want to tell him straight...XD he said he missed no one but his girlfriend on facebook...so it makes me kinda happy when he says he thought of me during vacation. I'm an idiot lol, after being rejected that many times, I just want to stick onto him. I'm such a bitch loool.
Well...when he tells me he's chatting with her girlfriend. I feel so lonely that I could die XD jealousy? Maybe? But I'm already used to this kind of feeling looool.
Chatted with family yesterday, 1st, about getting my aircon back without telling my dad (what a good daughter, pffft XD) Maybe he'll go crazy when he knows it BUT! I don't care anymore -.-...
2nd, about renting an apartment from government and go live with my mom instead. Though...it seems like she doesn't remember it today, did she took it seriously? I took it seriously, I want a home where there're no strangers, I want my family to eat together on dining table, I want to watch TV as a family. Those stuffs which every family does everyday, it's so difficult for mine.
I'm sure I've not been low on mood because of my period loool, something's wrong with me, it's different from before, the thought hasn't gone away even after 2 weeks now...jealousy, sadness, betrayed, disappointment, giving up, anger and negative thoughts. They're not going away. Maybe I don't want it to go away after all, so that no one can open this lock and injure me further.
♥our lips must always be sealed
♥11:56 PM