My mood is between angry and disappointed now.
Sounds like a kid huh...
Disappointed that...nevermind, it's just my wishful thinking. I really need to move on but I don't know how, I realise that you're not his shadow. Because you're truthful to me and sometimes, truth hurts. Hurting me unknowingly is what you always do, but you never realise. I wanted to tell you but whenever I do that all you did was apologize. What's the purpose of making you sad when I'll be sad because of that. Seeing how people atleast gets to give you presents via online, I'm really useless.
Angry, well...I'm useless, yup.
Gonna look for job tomorrow, a part-time job if available, or else full time...I don't know if I'll still have fun if I get a full time job, I mean, I'm still 17? I want to study like others, if I get a fulltime job now, yes, I get money but I'll lost alot of things, chance to hang out with friends, the time chatting with him, enjoying myself typing stories. These all will change...
I don't know my head hurts, knowing I should stop acting like a kid and be an adult, but still...if only time can stop.
I'm really confuse, jobs, money, friends, him, everything. No one can get best of both worlds, if I gain something I'll have to give up on something. I'm not prepared for that, not at all. Going to the society seems giving up for all my dreams, I don't believe in myself, my dream always drift away, and that part of me should drift away too.
♥our lips must always be sealed
♥11:13 PM