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Aki , my name
Am 18~~
I blog whatever i want ! (:

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"If we live our life in fear,
I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again "

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♥ October 2010
♥ November 2010
♥ December 2010
♥ January 2011
♥ March 2011
♥ April 2011
♥ May 2011
♥ June 2011
♥ July 2011

♥Sunday, October 31, 2010

14th.

Wakey at 10+ in my blanky, play sims 2 for almost the whole day~ my life's bored...oh techno no more btw.
Gonna look for job tomorrow I guess? Part-time, hopefully.
Watched katy perry's 'firework' MV, awesome, everyone is beautiful at what they are, don't care what other thinks, as long as you're happy, and happy need courage. I think that's the point of the MV?
life's bored, peace out.

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WEEEEEEE~~~ @ 13th day~~~ MY lucky number. Who said number 13 is unlucky? It's taylor swift's lucky number too lol!!

Was gonna just sleep (techno in ma head), but I showered, and I NEVER sleep with my hair wet. Techno~~techno~~KE$HA LOL!

Okies, woke up @ 7 by a bloody adv message.....went back to sleep, woke up at 10+, bored 'til 1+, realised partner's msg, msg msg and went out for MOVIE! Went to bugis for movies, spilled popcorn (cry face) watched 'the social network' rate it 4/10? Well it's too confusing, and no romance! That's my pure opinion, some might find it cool so yeeah. After that went to some drinking area dunno what name that is, had a bottle of beer, about 4.05% I think? And technos in my head and my heartbeat XD, calmed down after that, from techno to R&B XD.
Fiona came after that, NO MORE alcohol for me lol! I would want to go back home without barfing lol! Had fries~ ok i'mma stop crapping lol. Anyway I'm such a scamming bitch XD

Took train home, saw an indian lady holding a heavy stuff, gave up my seat to her, WHICH THEN, caused me to have dizzy head 'cuz my head's techno-ing and the train is shaking XD it's worth it, she needs that seat lol.

TODAY IS OFFICIALLY THE LATEST TIME I REACH HOME, no one freaked out, no one cares lol! (cry face, again) Went shower and TAAADAAA am here blogging with POP in my head, awzz from techno to pop lol!

♥Friday, October 29, 2010

day 12~ oh fuck i missed a day >.> CAN'T BLAME ME FOR MY BUSY LIFE! (so not lol, so not)

wakey @ 8++ today, mom's still in hospital (did i mention that? no? ok lol she's in hospital XD) Meet up with partner at noon, ate lunch together. Wow, 2 friggin roti-prata take such a long time, should've buy my dessert 1st lol! HOT!

Went to Bugis after that, again, HOT! Hmm, where did I go again...oh yeah, went to get partner's pay (it's just $10 difference yo, get over it kk? XD) She bought an expensive lunch for her girlfriend, met her girlfriend and went to tampines after that to meet Gwen, as I expected, she's late. But I'll NEVER imagine her driving a truck aka. lorry. Ok, this is the 2nd time in my life hopping on a lorry, it always takes me great effort to get on lol!! The 1st time it's...oh, my friend's birthday party, and it's super late when it ends, my mom ain't got the time to fetch me and she won't let me go home myself so she had the father of my friend which is my neighbor to drive us both home, I remember I had a HARD time getting on that truck XD.

Went to a youth centre, totally awesome, wish that I can hang around there longer but partner has to go to her class so we left earlier than I expected. I'll definitely go that place whenever I'm free if I live near there, too bad~~ Awwwwzzzz @ greenday's 21 guns! I'm like OMFG IT'S 21 GUNS BY GREENDAY when I hear that song. ofcuzzzz that's how my heart reacted, can you really expect someone yelling THAT?? LOL! btw, this blog song is too from greenday, awz huh.

I cleared out my path, maybe. So it's number 2 from the path choice, but I'll change from working full-time and quit when I wanna study TO working part-time while I'm studying, yeah this'll work, hopefully, ofcuz I need some financial help from parents for the 1st year's school fees, ain't got pay that soon, I think?

Dear Partner, follow y0ur heart, don't give a damn about what others think, my old classmates think it's sick that I love someone which I met online and we didn't even meet before for friggin 4 years! So yeah! Why give a damn?! No one knows what your path will be like, just feel happy, easy as it is :D
... >.> maybe 'cuz i think that way, my mind is always empty...hmmm....oh WHO CARES, i like being empty. MWAHAHAHAHAHA.

And YOU, you can't read this anyway, FUCK YOU BLOODY ASSHOLE! Can't believe we're gonna stop talking just 'cuz of a stupid movie! DOESN'T MEAN I'M WRONG! 'The last song' is a really good movie! You could just say yeah it's cool instead of critisize it! It's a good movie! I don't need your opinion unless you've watched the movie! Who cares if it's miley cyrus who plays it, she's a good actress, that's what I see from the movie and I've watched hannah montanna since the 1st season, she's a good actress OKAY?? Not that I'm a Fan or something. And I tell you about that movie because I'm used to telling you EVERYTHING, as in EVERYTHING. And we ain't talking now 'cuz of a friggin movie. Gawd. If you want us to go this way? Fine, not that I care now.

BTW, watched videos on youtube talking about JB (justin bieber) 51 year old pedophile thing, I feel bad for JB, it's like, hey, he's only a teen. Yeah I joke about him but that's only a joke and it doesn't harm anyone. But that youtube video, that's lame and really hurtful for JB. Stood myself in his position, I'll go crazy for sure. And btw, I don't hate him or his song, it's just that~ you know~ ppl loves joking about him! :P, but this time that prank video about JB is 51 yearold pedophile, is not a joke anymore.

♥Wednesday, October 27, 2010

day 11th~

Woke up at 7+, go back to sleep again woke up by mom's TV at 9. Gawd. Always treat me like I'm invisible, boom the TV 'til super loud. If next time I'm having PMS I'm sooooo gonna go crazy. Is it too late to be rebellious now? LOL!

Ok~ nothing interesting as usual, partner wants to video call with me, loool, I paste a reciept on the cam camera and mute the voice. MWAHAHHHA OWNED! Watched movie after that, 'the last song' totally cool, pretty touching, rate it 7/10. Just my personal opinion.
Wanted to watch 'vampire suck' a comedy from the movie twilight, but the links ain't working, shall wait. Going out this Fri, thinking of going out tomorrow, I don't know, depends on the mood.

And gawd, if what YOU are doing now is tell me to fuck off and leave you alone? Guess what, you win. I don't want to think about datings and stuffs now, more than enough to worry about my career life. Gawd.

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ahh damn...the amount of time for the video to load is more than the video's time.
Hate to say this but might as well buy disk -.-...

Okies! Today! Is a bored day! As usual! Done reporting! Lol XD.

Let's see what's interesting today...oh, woke up at 7+ due to my feet (shouldn't face the feet towards the fan, freeeeeeeze) And watch videos after that, today's mostly about typing story, great inspiration today. Had a nap, mom's TV is so damn loud I had to listen to symphony to get me sleep, get to catch some sleep for about 2 hours or something, enough I guess, though I'm still tired now.
Oh the videos, anime, vlogs basically. There's this one anime, uhh, good story line, character's cute, but damn! Before I was prepared there's a sex scene lol!! I'm like SHOCK! and skipped that part. After that I wonder...it's not like I've never watched those before -.-...why am I shock. lmao.

I realised 3 path for me today, 1. Get a job and just continue working, don't bother about education level. 2. Get a job, earn money, study night school and exhaust the shit outta me, 3. Ask parents to pay for my school fees, but that plan is taking me 7 years time. (And they're stingy) So yeeeeeah, I had HIM picked a choice for me and he picked number 2. The worst answer I was expecting to be, but he's true about one thing, I need to get a job lol. Maaaaaaybe I'll get a job and work 'til I turn 18, get an office job. But I'm afraid of making choices, if i randomly pick a factory job now I wouldn't know if a better office job will come for me next. Struggle struggle~~

Water's out for a few minutes today in my house, that made me realise how important water is in our life lol. My bro was having tummy ache and I goes you better not go toilet now, and when I realise there's water back I didn't tell him (MWAHAHAHAHA) but oh well, he found out soon after that. No fun :P

♥Monday, October 25, 2010

s-u-c-k-i-s-h.

happy b-day to YOU. ok, i didn't enjoy it at all. maybe because i'm obssessive and selfish? yeeeeeah am a bitch.

flipped through the newspaper for jobs today, office jobs are too far, those near me are factory jobs. Something just rolls into my mind, heck, I want money! But looking at those jobs reminds me of that day when i'm in factory, people are just unfriendly to you! look down on you! Gawd, I know I'm more than that! Ok, I'm acting like a brat but, I really don't want to do labour jobs. Not only for my health, but also for my emotion, I just, don't want to be wasted like that. But some part of me tells me to know my limit, this sucks.
EVER thought that you're more than you deserve now? If you do, understand my feeling.
It's not like I'm not stupid or I can't study much, it's just I didn't cherish the chances. that doesn't mean I regret leaving school >.>...
If i'm to restart my education now, that'll take lots of money and time. I want that, but no one around me agrees with me hah....after all, money is more pratical.

♥Sunday, October 24, 2010

My mood is between angry and disappointed now.
Sounds like a kid huh...

Disappointed that...nevermind, it's just my wishful thinking. I really need to move on but I don't know how, I realise that you're not his shadow. Because you're truthful to me and sometimes, truth hurts. Hurting me unknowingly is what you always do, but you never realise. I wanted to tell you but whenever I do that all you did was apologize. What's the purpose of making you sad when I'll be sad because of that. Seeing how people atleast gets to give you presents via online, I'm really useless.

Angry, well...I'm useless, yup.

Gonna look for job tomorrow, a part-time job if available, or else full time...I don't know if I'll still have fun if I get a full time job, I mean, I'm still 17? I want to study like others, if I get a fulltime job now, yes, I get money but I'll lost alot of things, chance to hang out with friends, the time chatting with him, enjoying myself typing stories. These all will change...
I don't know my head hurts, knowing I should stop acting like a kid and be an adult, but still...if only time can stop.
I'm really confuse, jobs, money, friends, him, everything. No one can get best of both worlds, if I gain something I'll have to give up on something. I'm not prepared for that, not at all. Going to the society seems giving up for all my dreams, I don't believe in myself, my dream always drift away, and that part of me should drift away too.

♥Saturday, October 23, 2010

Argh....life is bored without you!! >.> so not........
Well, off he goes to concert last night, visiting friends AND COMING BACK TOMORROW NIGHT. Telling me the last minute lol!!

Maybe I'll visit the library (again, I know) tomorrow if my back is feeling better, I think I sprained it, no biggie. And maybe window shop again...risky lol, I have a feeling i'll empty my purse :P Evil window shopping!!! That sounded weird...w.e

Ok~~I've told alot of ppl I have 3 memory banks, things that doesn't means much to me goes to my 3 min, at most 12 hours memory bank, bank number 1 lol. Things that I remember much and won't forget for my whole life goes number 2. And number 3, my comp. XD

Oh oh, btw, the reason I use 'wake me up when sepetember ends' as blog song thingo 'cuz last year september was really the worst month I ever had, and this september, I fought with him like over 5 times, argued alot with others, get depress alooooot, anyways. I hate september. XD

I'm boooooored.....time goes so slow now............argh, the dots makes me time's ticking slowly. Hurry up~ Hurry up~~ I'm bored!!! Maybe I should play sims, it kills my time.

♥Friday, October 22, 2010

came back home 2 hours ago, sprained my back (great.......)

Met up with partner today, went to city hall meeting Gwen, lmao and i thought partner was late enough >.> Whatever happened to punctuality now! lol! Anywaaays, shared a meal with partner, $3.80 per person, poor thing, we're poor lol. The mall is friggin big and WALKED SUPER FAST (yeeeah, lose some weights there XD) Had coffee-creamy-thingo, not bad, love sugar free coffee. Talk about LOOOOOTS of stuffs, played a tarot game, i'm still confuse though, maybe becuz I dunno what I want to ask lol. I wanna do it again~~

Gonna meet Gwen again next Friday. Hope I don't get lost >.>.....I'mma look for job for the time being too. Sooooo looking forward for $$$$$$ lol. Still has got bunch of things to buy, comestics, clothes, uhhh was gonna buy sims 3 but i think it's a waste of money so yup. Maaaybe I should start saving money now, pick pockets will be disappointed if they got hand of my bank card lol. MWAHAHAHAHAH (Am retarded XD) <<< ooo, double chin (Use your imagination rofl)

The whole world is turning and some people are not, I'm not surprise, shock I just think O-M-G, if i say "dog doesn't change eating shits", IT'S AN INSULT TO ALL DOG FELLOWS. She's either brainless, flirtious, or just................Nevermind, I don't wish to open up my vocabulary bank for ppl like her. Anywayz! A total disgrace to society!
Hate talking behind someone's back but it's just. urgh! a total gross out.

PS: Dear partner, I'll respect and support w.e decision you make. :D be a warrior~~ warrioress? W.E lol!! Goodluck

I think w.e is my new fav word. Mwahahahahah << fav no.2

♥Thursday, October 21, 2010

Wowzers @ the haze out there. :D reminds me of genting~~

Been surfing net all day looooong, FB as usual, youtube....blah...
Curry chicken for dinner, kewl.
Bought a new kind of mint candy yesterday, not minty enough, doesn't give me much inspiration.

I just asked mom when we're going to genting again, well, 200 per person, damn, gotta get a job real soon. Wondering what I can do though, :D maybe i'll be a translator~~ joking.
Everytime I have a dream or wish or thought of future w.e, it just gives me a dead end lol. Like HE asked me what job I want to be and I goes, I'll rather stay home taking care of kids, and I want to be a mom AND found out I might have PCOS! And I have no choice but to drop that thought, I want to be a vet instead. Then I realise science is needed, and I'm at primary level for science so YUP! NO MORE DREAMS TO THINK NO MORE FUTURE TO EXPECT.
Yeeeah I know dream and reality doesn't exist, but doing a job I dislike just bores me! Factory's life style is too...i dunno, it's a messy place alright, with all kinds of people WHICH are rude and bunch of SOBs. Servicing others are just not me lol.

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, I hate it when I call for a job and get reject just 'cuz of my age, hey! Age doesn't mean anything! Doesn't mean that all teenagers are mother fuckas that'll screw up everything! Gawd...Am proud to say that even I'm low educated I'm much more better as a human than those working in offices, at least I know that I should give up my seat despite having sorefeet to elders while those works in office doesn't. REEEEEAL SOBs.

Is that what school teaches? Take care of yourself after your long day of work, not considerate aobut others. Then PHEW, so glad I quit school. Now to think of it I don't remember school teaching me about Moral after primary school. Sad.

♥Wednesday, October 20, 2010

OK, worst day ever. Actually not that of a bad, it's just, me.

Went library today, not in mood to read any books. Got some mangas instead.
Went to JP for window shopping, comestic gonna cost about $40, oh well.
While I'm shopping, things that happened bugs me, even songs aren't helping me anymore. Every sentence I read, I will never forget.

Days pass by slow for me recently, what can I do, what should I do, is there a way of going back to where we are, why don't we chat as much anymore, what do you mean by that yesterday, a big step for us, are you telling me you've thought about it or you know there won't be an ending. I don't know what you're thinking anymore.

Everything and Everyone is just disappointing, I shouldn't blame anyone, I know it by heart but still. That's in my character, I'm trying hard to control it.

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ahaha...should i say worst or best day ever?

I dunno how good it'll be, but still, going out in uhhh 6 hours? I dunno, i hate math.

Well I just want someone to protect me and stand up for me even I'm wrong, I thought it's you but I guess I'm wrong, you said taking one big step for us instead, I'm not happy at all, I just want to be by your side, I don't expect anything else. Time to think logical, not emotionally.

I sweared I won't argue with you about you and your girlfriend that time, I didn't argue, but when you mention her it just hurts me. When you told me you're going to meet her in r/l I freaked out, and happy for you, but more of a worried. I know she'll hurt you and I can't help you anything here, just hope that you'll be fine. When you tell me you're not going, I'm glad, but sad for you knowing you're upset by that. When you break up with her, I'm not happy at all, 'cuz you're not, for the next few weeks you've been mean and all that, I understand, and stick with you.
So yeah, I just need someone to stick with me when I need help or when I'm sad. I admit I'm childish today arguing for stupid stuffs with that bitch, but I'm not upset by that, I'm just upset 'cuz you're not standing up for me, and watching instead. Well yeah you blamed her in the chatroom while everyone watches it, I'm happy. But your damn harsh words after that in MSN hurts too, and it STILL doesn't slap me awake. Too bad huh.

Sometimes I just gotta need to think logically, I never did when I was young, but now, I have to. Things that has no guarantee and future, I wouldn't dare to think, or even try it out.
Just wanna be by your side, that's all.

♥Tuesday, October 19, 2010

it's 3.53am in the morning~~
can't sleep cuz i had nap~~
okaays, has been bored since 12am, watched tv, videos online, FB-ing.
Chattin with dear PPA (purple pervert alien) aka. corv now, what a damn scorpio >.>

Dunno if you read this partner, am bored and went to your blog to flip through almost every archives, hmmm figured maybe i'm too obsessive back then, but, well, sorry that's in my personality. I like making new friends and hanging with a big group, but hate to say this am shy rofl! It's kinda hard for me to accept new peepos and hang with them ya know? Anywhozers am glad everything came back to what it is a yeeeeear? ago :P. lookin forward to hang out with ya, dial me.

I WAS GONNA GO TOILET AND THERE'S THIS LIZARD ON THE WALL CRAWLING WITH LOUD NOISES AND OMG OMG! IT DROPPED ON THE FLOOR!! AND CRAWLLED AWAY!! ARGH!!! HATE PESTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥Monday, October 18, 2010

noon now, friggin hot out there. and I realise one way to survive this hot weather: nap.
But damn, bro's playing GTA and all i hear is fuck here and there -.- nice one GTA. Watched videos all day looooooong, chatted, and FB.
Lol, time changes ppl, ppl changes things, things changes time. It's like a biiiiig circle, oh well, all is well and good, hope nothing happens from now on.
COUNTING DOWN TO ME'S BIRTHDAY, damn, how am I gonna spend it, spending it at home makes me feel pathetic, oh well i'll see about that.
My sweet 16th is spent in the hospital, >.> like corv said...it's an unforgotten b-day. 17th mom pre-celebrated it for me at a sushi bar, heck, I waited for egg sushi while eating others (mostly moose cake or w.e it spells) and when I'm full it finally appear -.-, i'm like DAMN! and swallow 2 down. XD, On the day of my 17th, went to beach, got myself sticky and regretted going there, I look shitty that day too, hmm.
18TH B-DAY BETTER BE GOOD OR I'MMA........-.- i dunno.
Maaaybe i'll go library tomorrow, books on due, borrowed 4, read 1. C'mon! I have no time looool, i've got sims 2 to play, facebook to hang around, videos to watch, DS games to play. yeeeah i'm busy :P
Mom's in hospital, hasn't call back yet, hope she's fine although i'm like, pffff she'll be fine. It's just backache, no biggy.

I think I'mma end this with a quote:

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we've lost it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrive.
~ not by me, got it online XD